autofictions
emergency guidelines:
do not ressuscitate (DNR)
medications can aggrave my state
my diet is very limited and food can aggravate my state
please listen to me about medication and food
in case i am unconscious, please know that i have given guidelines to two therapeutic representatives
feb.-sept. 2024:
here is my survival kit:
diapers (in case i have sudden diarrhea and need to change)
one pair of boxers
one tiny towel
imodium
anti-spasmodic drug
chocolate
orange
hydrating solution that has been especially prepared without sugar
water
equitherapy with Horus
warm clothes
blanket
hat
2 different pairs of loop earplugs
foam ear plugs
etymotic hearphones
shokz bone conduction headphones
small bag of dried hay (sometimes that smell can calm me down)
lavender essential oil
emergency guidelines in case
horus, i love you:
Tania, thank you for guiding me towards equine therapy
horus, thank you for teaching me the fundamentals of existing and connecting
horus, i gave you the responsibiity to hold me here
horus, i wonder whether the moments of exquisite connection and dance duets with you could be called "solidarity"
horus, i wonder how much i "colonize" you
i am sorry for any of this
i am educating myself to stop
horus, it is now december 2024 and my skin has strongly reacted after 2 visits
i am mad, desperate, but i can't believe i am allergic to you
horus, you have entered my drawings and i love that
horus, i need to draw my skin's reactions
what do you think?
january 2025:
unresolved, still:
illegitimately long noise overload where i live
issues related to sensorial overstimulation
request to receive a modest compensation from the municipality
search for a "safe home"
soul vibrations about where to be
suffering about my loss of the community i had in toronto
skin reactions
tinnitus
lack of connection with the art world
contradictions between my energy limitations and my activist impulses
family worries